"The greatest discovery of all time is that a person can change his future
by merely changing his attitude."
- The Oprah
Being unemployed for the first time in nearly a decade is a surreal but refreshing change of pace. While plotting my next move professionally, I've been able to recover from a lot of the stress and anxiety that I've been carrying around for far too long. In letting those things go, I suddenly found myself inspired in a way and on a level that I have never in my life experienced. I have always considered myself first and foremost a writer, despite what few genuine outlets I've had for my work. In the last year, Zip and a Kick! evolved into something very specialized. The recaps, photocaps, and reviews became my #1 priority creatively, and - at the risk of sounding full of myself - I'm immensely proud of the discipline that has gone into it, and the finished product that came as a result of that discipline. I have so much respect for the critics, journalists, and bloggers that do this sort of thing for a living - because it is HARD. WORK. For me, it has meant a lot of late nights, a lot of not seeing even my closest friends, and an entirely new kind of stress than what I was used to in my "day job". I've never been doing it for the money (a good thing, since I've never been paid for it), but rather because I enjoy putting my thoughts, opinions, and weirdo sense of humor out there for the world...and connecting with people in the process. That is the return on the investment of my time, despite it not being monetary. So what happened? That enormous inspiration that I mentioned above - that's what happened.
Enough beating around the bush: I've decided to begin work on my first novel. This will be my first attempt at the world of fiction, and it's a hugely intimidating prospect. I'm not ready to detail the concept just yet, however I will say that the idea is pretty ambitious. Hell, I may even be biting off more than I can chew. But in keeping with the risks I've taken as of late, it's a limb I'm willing to go out on. As such, I'll be taking my time on this project - it's one that requires a great deal of research before the narrative can begin to even loosely take form. In other words: Don't expect to see me promoting a finished product anytime in 2013. I'm happy to share my progress over time, though. What this means for Zip and a Kick!, however, is slightly more complicated.
In order to do it right, I honestly feel that I will need to devote 100% of my creative energies to this undertaking. I'm not going to shut down the site, but there's a good chance that weekly recaps are going to have to be put on hold for the foreseeable future. It pains me to even think about it, but I truly feel that it's the right thing to do. I'm not saying you won't get some updates every now and then (The Carrie Diaries is just beginning, after all), but my efforts will need to be re-routed. Hopefully what I accomplish down the road will make this compromise worthwhile. I really believe that it will.
Literally infinite thanks to everyone for your support of the site and my work over the past four (!) years. Zip and a Kick! is an extension of myself, and means too much to me to simply let go - let's just say it's re-grouping. This isn't the end, but it is a new beginning. Wish me luck. Keep moving forward.